Kai rishtedaaron ke sath bhi ghagda hua, mera jivan narak ban gaya tha aur ek chita ki nai main andar hi andar sulag raha tha aur mritpray ho gaya tha. Isi beech 1997 main mera selection Airforce main ho gaya lekin abhi call lettre nahin aaya tha. Main Santon me bilkul vishwas nahin karta tha aur pakka nastik ban gaya tha, Sadhu Santon aur Bhagwan ko gali deta tha. Isi beech mere ek-do rishtedaron ne Pujya BapuJi se dikha le li thi. Main ek ladki ke chakkar main tha aur hum mil nahin pa rahe the. Tabhi mujhe pata chala ki Saharanpur mein BapuJi ka Satsang hain aur waha ladki wahan jayegi. Mere mann mein keeda rengne laga aur wahin us ladki se mulakat ho sakti hain. Meri satsang main koi ruchi nahin thi magar us ladki se milne ke liye main 20-23 March 1998 roj ja raha tha phir bhi kisi karanvash mil nahin paya, vahaan par Pujya Narayan Sai (BapuJi k Suputra) aur SureshanandJi (BapuIi k krupaa paatra shisya) ka Satsang tha. 23 March ko achanak ek policewale ne meri gaal par jor se thapad mara to main ne poocha ki kyon mara hain to wah bola ki tum aisi jagah aakar bhi aise galat kam karte ho, tumhe sharam nahin aati? Tabhi GuruJi bhi poornahuti hetu padhare. Darshan karte hi laga ki mujhe sab kuch mil gaya hai aur mujhe inse diksha leni chaahiye. Inke dware hi meri jeevan naiya paar lagegi aisi prerna hui.
Main 9 April 98 ko Haridwar Shivir mein diksha hetu gaya magar wahan bhi dikha nahin mili lekin wahan par GuruDev ne kaha ki jo mujhe Guru mante hain ya manna chahte hain ve dakshina de, hath uthakar vachan de. Mera bhi hath achanak uth gaya.
GURU KINHI KRIPA AUR BADAL DALI MERI JEEVAN DISHA
Pujya BapuJi ne kaha ki aaj ke baad aap log bidi, cigarrete, daru, meat aadi k sevan nahi karoge aur maha aascharya dekhiye ki us din se meri sharab, bidi, maans, ande, cigarrete sab apne aap chut gaye aur mujhe koi bhi prayas nahin karna pada. Tabhi 20 April 98 ko Ghaziabad mein Mantradiksha mil gayi aur is prakar hua mera (naya)adhyatmik janam. Dikhsa milte hi sab buri aadte chut gayi aur jeevan mein ek naya anand aur ullas cha gaya. Yauvan Suraksha aur Yogyatra 3 and 4 na ghajab ka asar kiya. Jo jeevan mere liye maut se bhi badtar ho gaya tha wah ab amrit sadrsah ho gaya, kaam krodh shadvikar bhi gayab ho gaye. Charo aur anand, madurya aur prempoorna dristi nazar aane lagi. Phir main 19 June 98 ko training me aa gaya. Kaiyon ko is sharir dware prerna milne lagi aur kai yuvan yuvatiyon ka charitra sudhar gaya, gharwalon sahit 30-3 aadmiyon ko dikhsa dilwa di. Yuva bhaiyon behnon! aapse karbadh namratapoorvak vinti hain ki aap sab bhi Pujya BapuJi k Satsang amrit ka pan kare-karaye. Ghar ghar mein ujala laye jisse Gurukrupaa swarup Bharat phir se Vishvaguru ki padvi par pahunch jaye. TV cinema novel ganda sahitya fashion vyasan aadi se sada mukta rahen, auro ko bhi mukt kare, asha hai ki aap sab log in anubvhavon se awashye hi labhanvit honge.
Hai GuruDev, aapko itna karib pata hoon, yaad karna bhi bhool jata hoon. Aap hi aap ashru behte hain, aap hi aap muskurata hoon.
Is anibhav se mujhe to Gurucharnon mein sacchai se apne hridya ko rakhne ki jo prerna mili hain ki anupan fayde ka anubhav hua hain. Hari Om
GURU KINHI KRIPA AUR BADAL DALI MERI JEEVAN DISHA
Yesterday one bhai wrote anubav about BapuJi's meeting with PathikJi Maharaj and his disciple AcharyaJi. I was reminded of one Bhagwat kathakar whose name I don’t remember. He had his katha in Gurgaon district and I reached there somehow because that was organized by one of BapuJi's sadhak and I was trying to catch one of our sadhaks who was trying to avoid me because she was not submitting her Bal Sanskar reports since long. That kathakar has a intersting story behind him. He is in his late 20's now. When he was infant his parents died. Their neighbour brought him up and when he was 4-5 yr old she sent him to an ashram of a Saint where he was brought up and he started doing Bhagwat katha when he was quite young and that was his 100th Bhagwat katha. At first the ahankar in me stopped me from going for his darshan as I thought he is not a Self realized Saint, he is just a kathakar lekin Bapu ne to mera ahankar galana hi tha to mujhe kisi tarah pahuncha hi diya. Although I bowed to him and he greeted me with a smile but inside I was still like a palm tree, standing straight refusing to bow, mujhme ahankar tha Bapu ka sadhak hone ka, namrata to us samay pata nahi kahan thi mujhme. Lekin uske baad mujhe jo sunne ko mila mera sir sharam se ghuk gaya. Mujhe unki Gurubhakti ke bare mein jab Rekha didi ne bataya.
Once his GuruDev said "Aajkal Eklavya jaise shishya nahin milte“ unhone jaise hi yeh baat suni apne GuruDev se bole "GuruDev agar sachhe Sadguru hain to unki kripa se Eklavya jaise shishya bhi ban jate hain. itna kehkar unhone chaku(knife) se apni 3 fingers kat kar apne GuruDev ke charno mein rakh di.
Yeh ghatna sunkar mera sara bhoot utar gaya. Main apne ko sadhak manne ka jo ahankar kar raha tha wo ek pal mein hi tirohit ho gaya. Main unki Gurubhakti ko naman kar raha tha aur apne karmon par glani mehsoos kar raha tha. Maine socha abhi to aisi koi kausauti hamari hui hi nahi hain, hum aise hi phool kar apne ko kuch manne ki bhool karte hain.
Aage to mujhe Rekha didi ne bataya jo un Sant ne katha ke baad BapuJi ka jikra chidne par bataya. Wo bole ki hum bachhe the tab BapuJi hamein khoob laad karte the. Humhe to BapuJi apni gaud me bithate the. BapuJi jab GuruDev se milte to humhe bhi darshan hote the aur wo hume bahut pyaar karte the. Abhi bhi BapuJi se phone par baat hoti rehti hain aur Narayan Sai se mulakat bhi hoti rehti hain.
And also around 1 yr back one of GuruDev's mitra Sant Barfani Baba came to Gurgaon not for Satsang but that BabaJi was staying at one his bhakt's place. That Sant lives in higher peaks of Himalayas in some gufa over there and wears nothing but a langot and GuruDev even sent Narayan Sai to Gurgaon for darshans of that Saint aur mera durbhagya tha ki mujhe pata lagne ke bavjood mein nahin pahunch paya aur jab gaya to pata laga ki wo Sant ja chuke hain.
Sant Ka Darshan Badbhagi pave.
Also I apologies I forgot to mention in previous mail BapuJi's trip to Pakistan about what GuruDev said the reason behind his trip. I don’t fully remember what GuruDev said but I do remember and writing in my own words “ Jo kam rajsatta nahin kar payi wo kam dharmsatta se hi sambhav hain. Hamare jane ka prabhav to jaroor padega, yeh mamla netaon se nahi suljhega, yeh to Santon se hi hoga. BapuJi also said some more things but I exactly don’t remember . I apologise for that.
Hari Om Manish
It was when BapuJi had to go to Pakistan for Satsang. BapuJi gave darshan in morning. BapuJi had a flight late in the evening. So in the morning BapuJi gave Satsang and highlighted the reason behind going to Pakistan and the effect it will cause. When BapuJi went back into his kutia all people were asked to leave ashram all main sadhak shishyas were there like BaapJi, Shekhar bhai and all people and they had to make preparations for it. Baapji was packing BapuJi's luggage. However some other sevas were also going on, so somehow I got the opputunity to stay in the ashram. Actually stall godown was being shifted so we were doing that only and the old godown which we were cleaning up, BaapJi was sitting in same room packing GuruDev's luggage. So we got a lot of darshans of BaapJi as I went in and out many times. At around 4.30 in the evening, BaapJi was about finished packing and then BaapJi was talking to some people who somehow remained in the ashram. I was just trying to listen all what BaapJi was telling about Bapu to all those people but I couldn't. After those people left Baapji called us and asked "Kaun Kaun seva mein tha." Hum Hath jod kar khade ho gaye aur BaapJi ne mere hath mein ek badi pinni rakh di and said --Mauj hain. I just couldn't believe my luck. Baapji ke darshano ke baad unke hathon se prasad wo bhi unhone swyam aakar diya.
In the evening I had to go to airport with one bhai from ashram as BapuJi's passport was to arrive from Amdavad in a package and we had to collect that. When we returned back to ashram BapuJi was on vyaspith giving darshans. Bapu ne itni mauj karwayi ki poocho mat. When Bapu returned from Pakistan once in Satsang BaapJi was telling his experiences, how much respect, people from Pakistan gave to GuruDev. Baapji even told that he visited Berani village in sindh- Village where GuruDev was born. When BapuJi passed through the streets of that village- as BaapJi told people stood on roof tops and greeted BapuJi. They showered flowers on GuruDev's car. Baapji said, he even applied the mitti of Berani on his forehead. Jahan GuruDev ne apna bachpan bitaya aisi pawan bhoomi ki mitti se to wo pawan ho gaye aur hum yeh anubhav sun sun kar pawan ho rahe the. Baapji said people over there gave so much respect that even they referred to GuruDev's Shreechitra as ""TASWEER SAHIB"" not just photo or chitra. (Sikhs pay respect to all holy bodies like Gurudwaras and Gurus and even Guru Granth Sahib by attaching SAHIB in end of it as respect.) The same way they refered GuruDev Sree Chitra as Tasweersahib.
First of all, I apologise for not being able to post any darshans because of several reasons and most important of them all I was waiting for BapuJi to come to Delhi. Although I was planning to go to Hisar but couldn't as I had an exam on Sunday which was the last day of Satsang in Hisar. After BapuJi finished Satsang in Hisar BapuJi said- "Hum Dilli ja rahe hain“ lekin pata nahin tha ki itna tadpayenge. BapuJi after finishing satsang in Hisar went to Hansi as there BapuJi had given one Satra there also. BapuJi gave one satra in Hansi on Sunday night and left for Rohtak via Bhiwani and Suresh BaapJi had to give satsang in Hansi yesterday. It was clear to no one whether BapuJi will come to Delhi directly or stay in Rohtak overnight. No one, not even people in Delhi or Rohtak ashram were sure about it.
I was planning to go to Rohtak but couldn't as I was not sure if BapuJi is coming directly to Delhi or not. Kisi tarah raat bitai. In the morning I was thinking of going to Rohtak as BapuJi spent the night in Rohtak but couldn't. In the morning BapuJi gave darshan in Rohtak and went for maalish back in his kutia. At around 10 or 11 I just happened to call Rohtak and came to know that BapuJi is leaving for Delhi. There was some chance that BapuJi might stopover in Bahadurgarh. As BapuJi left Rohtak, I left Gurgaon .
I was thinking of going to Jhatikra but somehow I decided that I'll go till Bahadurgarh. I stood on Rohtak road for 1/2 hour but BapuJi had reached Bahadurgarh ashram from some other route. I reached Bahadurgarh ashram. BapuJi hadn't come out for darshan as yet. In Bahadurgarh ashram it's like ,just above pandal it's BapuJi's kutia. There are stairs that come down to pandal from kutia. After around 30-45 minutes BapuJi came down. BapuJi kept standing on the stairs along the railing and looked at all the people.
BapuJi ne sabhi ko maun rehne ke liye shabasi di aur kaha. “Aapko shabash hain maun rakhne ke liye isliye hum upna niyam kar paye. agar shor hota to hum yahan se Jatikra chale jaate. 2 maiyan kahin bethe aur chup reh sake, naa...... par yahan itni sari maiyan aur kaisi shanti. Phir BapuJi ne ek katha sunai do bhaiyon ki, which was about karmo ki gati. ""Ishwar ki shrisiti mein anyaay nahi hota, kya usko pata nahi kya nyaay hain, kya anyaay, humko hi lagta hain ki sachhe log dukh bhogte hain aur papi log sukhi hain."" The summary was "Har koi apne poorva ke karmo ka phal bhogta hai. Pichle kiye punyon ya paap hi use sukh ya dukh dete hain.
While telling this katha BapuJi said in the katha "Chota bhai chakra gaya. Kya hua chote bhai ko-and all said---chakra gaya. BapuJi ko mauj aa gayi. BapuJi said-""chakra gaya, chakram, ooo chakram........" and Akhil bhai came running down from BapuJi's kutia. BapuJi said to Akhil bhai “Chote bhai ko kya hua, batao ise... chakra gaya.. achha ab ja. """""''Har koi Bapu ki lila ko dekh kar mauj kar raha tha.
BapuJi said after some time "Humne Hisar mein bhi ye katha nahin sunai, wahan alag aur yahan alag Satsang huya. Har jageh ke liye alag katha nikal hi aati hain. BapuJi also said after some time after talking about something else "Dakshina dekar jana. Paan masala na khane ka aur maiyan lali lipstick na lagayegi iska vachan dekar jana. BapuJi ne apni chadar se apne honth poonchte hue haste hue kaha -- Ponch do and all maiyan started laughing.-- lali lipstick se kudrati romkup nast ho jate hain aur pardes mein jo maiyan makeup nahi karti hai ve to baad mein bandariya jaise dikhti hain.
Phir Bapu bole- Aapko bhukh lagi hogi, aap jao, aap nahin kahoge to hum kaise kha sakte hain, yeh humse nahin hoga, humne nashta bhi nahin kiya hain subah se, aap khaoge tabhi hum khayenge. Hamare ghar koi aaye aur bhooka rahe ye humein achha nahi lagta humne poocha -taiyar hai to bola ki Bapu dalia taiyar hai lekin humne nahin khaya. Pehle aap khaoge tabhi hum khayenege. Mahila ashram mein humne keh rakha hai-pehle ashram ki bachhiyan khayengi baad mein hamari beti aur bhaiyon ke ashram mein bhi pehle ashram mein samarpit bachhe kheyenege aur baad mein hamara beta Narayan.
Apno se nyaay, doosron se udarta ho to dil mein santushti rehti hain aur wahi to chahiye ab aap yahan aaye ho to kisliye dil ki santushti ke liye hi na... Aap jao nahi to hum jate hain, hum gaadi mein kha lenge arre.... Akhil pack kar, gadi taiyar kar........ Hum chale. Ab aap jao aur bhojan karo nahin to yahin par banao. Everyone said - BapuJi hum yahin shanti se kha lenge aap mat jao. BapuJi said achha pulao ban gaya ho to lao hum check kar lein, one sevadar went to rasoi and reported to Bapu, BapuJi said -achha abhi pani dala hai chaval mein. Phir BapuJi kutia mein chale gaye.
We all also left the ashram as BapuJi was about to leave. After 15 minutes BapuJi's car came and left for Jatikra. I was behind BapuJi. There were some more cars also but all of them got stuck somewhere in traffice and were misled as BapuJi took his car from an unexpected route, even the car in piloting went on the wrong way. Only BapuJi's car and my bike were there, so we decided to stay along as even the piloting car was not there so we might get some seva.
BapuJi ne chaar baar seesha khola aur hath bahar nikala but it was not clear whether BapuJi was calling me or not that's why I didn't drive parallelly because mujhe dar tha kahin dant ne pade. Isliye I kept driving safely and at a distance from BapuJi's car. At Najafgarh BapuJi's car got stuck in traffic jam so I overtook BapuJi's car and tried clearing the jam but BapuJi said- Peeche aa, so I went back again and kept driving. BapuJi reached Jatikra and all this while I got darshans from behind. BapuJi went into the kutia and I and another bhai who reached there started doing mala. After around 20 minutes other vehicles came which got confused in the way. Aage kya hua in the next post.
Hari Om Manish
GuruDev ki aisi aseem anukampa hain ki Bapu ne yeh Diwali bhi safal kar di. As I gave you a hint yesterday about latest darshans, to is baar unki mauj dekho. Usually Bapu comes to Delhi this time of the year, even if for a few hours and we were expecting BapuJi to come this year also. As Bapu had given satsang in Bhopal, so today after satsang in Bhopal BapuJi was exected to come to Delhi, although it was not confirmed whether Bapu would stay in Delhi or leave for Amdavad. Whole day went into confusion, whether we'll get darshan or not. but Bapu bhi to sabki sunte hi hai. After a day full of confusion got the news that BapuJi would be coming by 10.00 pm flight in the evening. We reached airport by 8.30 pm and was still confused whether Bapu is coming or not. At 10:15 Bapu reached Delhi and was very happy, purna mauj mein the.
Sabse baat karte jab bahar pahunche to car ke paas khade hokar bole, aaj to aap log Sant k bhakt lag rahe ho, waise to shor karte ho to neta ke bhakt lagte ho. Om Namo Bhagwate Vasudevah........ Vasudevah... Istdevah........ Aananddevah.......... (and then with a shararat on his face) Aaram dene wale devay and then started laughing. All people in arrival lounge of airport were looking at Bapu and were surprised a lot. Then Bapu said, bhagdor k baad ab hum sochte hain chup ho jayen and then smiling sat in his car and went to ashram. And our correspondents from ashram report (bhai log kshamaa karnaa, thoda majak kar liya)---- in ashram some people were waiting for Bapu – Bapu sang--- ab hame jaane do........... and went into his kutia at 11.00pm I apologise I tried to post this but couldn't as my net was not working and I didn’t have much time as I have to leave for ashram tomorrow morning early.
On dhanteras morning we reached ashram at 5.30 am, and sat next to badbaadshah doing our morning sandhya waiting for BapuJi's morning darshan. It was declared that BapuJi would give satsang from 10 to 12 noon. NarsinghanandJi gave satsang from 10 till 11 and BapuJi came at 11 AM. Kya mauj hain mere yaar ki, wo apne hisse ki bhi humein pilana chahta hain. Itni mauj ki, ki kya bataon. BapuJi said- Hamare aane ka program koi pakka nahin tha, hamari to Amdavad ke liye connected flight thi lekin kuch logon ke liye nahin gaye. Phir subah 6 baje ki flight chhodi aur use baad ki bhi. Aap logon ko satsang mil gaya. Aaj to wahi log pahunchenge, jinhe bulaya jayega, bakiyon ko to jane ke baad pata lagega, ki Bapu Delhi aaye the. Diwali ke parv par aap logon ko satsang mil gaya, Diwali safal ho gayi. aaj to wahi log pahunchenge, jinhe bulaya jayega, mein to un logo ka naya saal achha banana chahta hoon.
Yahaan Rajokari ko ab Amdavad banana chahta hoon. And then gave some hints for next poonam in Delhi and asked samiti and sevadars to make efforts to do that and further said- Hum bhi saath denge. At around sandhya time BapuJi ne aisa dhyan karaya aur mera anubhav bataon to---- wahi same shabd dhyan me GuruDev ne kahe jo shabd subhe badbadshah ke pheri phirte samay meri prarthna ne nikle the. Kitne kripalu hain wo, kya kahen. Na vani saath deti hain na hi buddhi.
After aarti GuruDev left for airport. I took my bike and stood in the way to airport near a speedbreaker at a lonely stretch when BapuJi came, his car slowed down. Bapu looked at me and smiled and gave ashirwad and then moved to airport. At airport due to blasts in Delhi the night before there was red alert so cars were not being allowed till departure lounge so BapuJi's car stopped on the road and from there BapuJi walked around 25 -30 feet and entered airport.
Belive me, I tried to inform all u people, so atleast people in Delhi could reach but couldn't as my net wasn't working , as BapuJi said -- Aaj to wahi log pahunchenge, jinhe bulaya jayega. Aage unki ichha.
Guru ki seva Sadhu jane
Guruagya kya moodh pehchane
Guru k prati samarpan, Guru k prati bhakti aur Guru kee poorna nishta k sath seva kya kya kar sakti hai yeh to wahi jane jo iska anubhav kar chuke hain. Hum sab k pujniya aur adarsh, apne GuruDev ke sabse pyaare apne Suresh BaapJi kaa anubhav hain ye jo mujhe kal Nitin bhai ne sunaya tha aur unhe shivir mein jate samay kisi Agra ke sadhak ne bataya tha.
"""Ek baar Amdavad mein vatika mein BaapJi ko raat ko GuruDev ne charanchampi ke liye kutia mein bulwaya. Seva k baad Bapu ne BaapJi ko jane ki agya di. Jab BaapJi kutia se bahar aaye to apne dono hathon ko dekhne lage. Unke mann mein apne hathon ko dekhte dekhte bade bhaav aa rahe the, ke GuruDev ke charnon ka sparsh mila. Unke hathon par charan champi karne k baad thoda tel laga hua tha. BaapJi apne hathon ko badi der tak dekhte hi rahe, phir jab unhe kuch nahin soojha to vatika mein hi pani ka nal kholkar dono hathon se pani peene lage maano GuruDev ke charnon k sparsh ke sabhi spandan ve apne andar sama lena chahte hoon. Aur wo sadhak aage batane lage ki kehte hain ki us din se BaapJi ki vani pe Maa Saraswati niwas karti hain. """Bapu kehte hain ki jise Guruseva mein preeti hain prakriti bhi use sahay ho jati hain, phir wo jo keh de use to prakriti bhi poora karti hain.
GURU SEWA KA PRASAD
Nitin bhai further told me another incident which was told to him by same sadhak from Agra in train which happened many years ago in Haridwar. There was one shishya of GuruDev Swami NareshanandJi, unka ab sharir nahin raha, probably some old sadhaks know him. Ek baar GuruDev sandhya karne kutia mein ja rahe the, to jate jate NareshanandJi ko kaha ""“Yahin bethe rehna, snan karne mat jana, kahin mat jana, yahin bethe rehna""“ jab GuruDev sandhya karne chale gaye to NareshanandJi ne socha ki Bapu ne snan karne ko mana kiya hain, bus hath muh dho leta hoon. GuruDev kaise kaise sanket dete hain par unhe samajh na pae to apna kaisa nuksan hota hai. Swami NareshanandJi ka panv phisla aur wo GangaJi mein beh gaye. Jab GuruDev ko pata chala to Bapu ne bataya ki maine ise mana kiya tha Gangaji mein jane ke liye. Swamiji ki yatra abhi poori nahin hui thi aur jaisa GuruDev kehte hain ki GuruDev aur GuruMantra tab tak sadhak ka peecha nahi chhodta jab tak wah apne lakshya ko pa nahi leta. GuruDev ne sookshm jagat mein unke jeev ko prerit kiya to ek sadhak ke ghar SwamiJi ne janam liya. Ab wahi Swamiji ashram mein samparmit hain par ek bachhe ke roop mein aur apne yatra poori kar rahe hain.
Kaisi hai GuruDev ki karuna, hamara hit chahne ki unki bhavna. Ek nayi pustak ashram ki prakashit hui hai jiska naam hai " Mehakte Phool". sabhi sadhkon ke liye wah prerna strot hain specially us pusktak ke aakhri do pages.
Phirat phirat prabhu aayiyo padio tav sharnay
balak ki prabhu vinti , apni bhakti laaye.
Hari Om Manish
GURU SEWA KA PRASAD
First of all I apologise to GuruDev and all you bhai behans for not being regular in my seva as I was unable to do the seva on Saturday and Sunday. Actually I could not find any such anubhav which I could write here. Although all the lilas of Sai and anubhavs of sadhaks are worth sharing but I being a fool try to judge them and for that I sincerely apologise to GuruDev. First of all I would like to share bhavas of one bhai named Saurabh, I was talking to him on Saturday night. While talking to him he said-- Sai tum yunhi aate jate rehna.
hum tumhe dekh kar muskurate rahenge
tum humhe dekh kar muskurate rehna.
While coming back home I just recited the same thing, kya bhav the bhai ke ke mujhe bhi GuruDev ki yaad dila di. Meri aankhon se bhi Bapu ke yaad mein aanshu aa gaye.
BHASMASUR KRODH SE BACHO
Just in the evening I was talking to another bhai Nitin Singla . He's working in Gurgaon and basically from Barwala in Haryana. He told me this anubhav of another sadhak bhai while he was in Mullana (Ambala) engineering college. He met a sadhak bhai in college and that bhai shared his anubhav with him. In the words of that bhai himself "Jab mein Ist year mein tha so raat ko chhat par sota tha. Raat ko chand par tratak karta tha bahut bahut der tak aur jab chand nahi hota tha to aakash par aur taron par tratak kiya karta tha. Mera aisa dhyan lagta tha ki poocho mat aur aise aise anubhav hote the. Yauvan Suraksha pustak ke last page par hai- bhasmasur krodh se bacho, ek baar ka kiya hua krodh pure mahine ke jap tap aur punyon ko sheen kar deta hain. Wo bhai kehna laga , ek din college main canteen mein meri ek ladken se behas ho gayi aur baat itni badi ki mujhe bahut gussa aa gaya aur maine use kafi kuch suna diya. Par jab sham ko niyam mein betha to aisa laga ki main bilkul khali ho gaya hoon. Ek mahine ka nahin balki mujhe to laga ki teen mahino ke dhyan ke abhyas se jo such sanchit hua tha wo ek baar ke krodh se sheen ho gaya. Us baat ko aaj teen saal ho gaye hain lekin mera aaj tak pehle jaisa dhyan nahin laga. Waisi stithi phir nahin hui."""" BHASMASUR KRODH SE BACHO..........