Bapu subah se kutia mein hi dhyan me bethe the aur yahan hum unka intejar karte bahar baithe the, kahan to din bhar intejar kar rahe the ki sham ko Bapu aayenge to yeh hoga, wo hoga aur sham ko jab sandhya ke baad aaye to ek dum serious hokar, vyaspith par maun baithe Bapu dhyan kara rahe the, phir Aum Aum ka dhyan karvaya and then went back in, thodi nirasha thi kyunki subah Bapu ke liye badi mehnat se pehli baar maine aur ek bhai ne Bapu ke liye kismish, tulsidal aur toffee ki mala banai thi. ( behnon ka kaam bhai log kar rahe the- hum dono bhai log sui-dhaga lekar chhoti–chhoti kismish ki mala bana rahe the) Lekin maja bahut aaya dhyan ke baad.
Phir to hum seedha bhage rasode mein. Peth bhar ke bhojan kiya aur ashram ke kaka ne to laddoo bhi de diye- bole beta khao aur lete jao.
Hamara pet bharne ke bad ab masti chadne lagi. Bapu bhi nahin gaye so it was sure that next day hi jayenge. Bapu bhi jaisi dhyam ki mauj me the to lag raha tha ki shayad dubara darshan nahin denge. All of us were asked to leave ashram as it was around 9PM. Auron ko jane ke liye kaha par na jane khudh jane ka mann hi nahin kar raha tha. At around 10.55 my papa called me up and then started another volcano burst, I thought it's better I should return home if I wanted to enter home that night.
RAJOKRI NIGHT DARSHAN
I took my bike and another bhai who had to go to vadodara next morning and I told him that I would drop him at station next morning and left ashram. One gurubehan tried to stop me by saying that Bapu might come but I said, it's urgent and I have to go. Mushkil se 1 km gaya tha ki call aayi - Bapu bahar aa gaye, bhaiya jaldi aayo and I know how I drove my bike back and when I reached ashram, everyone was standing outside the barbed wire and BapuJi inside the fence, and this time with a smile----:):):):):), ab to main bahut khush ho gaya. I went quitely and stood behind the bhai with whom I had made kishmish mala. Bapu ne aate hi sabse pehle poocha- bhojan kiya? Then said- ratri ko der se bhojan nahin karna chahiye. 8-9 baje tak to bhojan pakka kar hi lena chahiye. Uske baad agar karna pade to halka karein. Then asked a small girl- Kya karti/padti(i'm confused) hain? To which she said- BapuJi sixth mein padti hoon. BapuJi said- sixth mein mat pada kar............. sixth mein mat pada kar.............kismen padegi? Chhati mein.... samjhi - BabaJi said with a smile. Then BapuJi said- “Ek mahine mein do grahan manav jati ke kiye sankat ka samay hain, lekin ghabrane ki jarorat nahin hai, Bhagwan ke jap se sab kaston k nivaran hota hain, isliye jyada se jyada jap karna. Surya grahan 3 October 2005 ko tha aur chandra grahan Sharad poornima ke din aane wali 17 October 2005 ko hain, isliye jitna ho sake jap karna.
RAJOKRI NIGHT DARSHAN
Grahan ka prabhav to dikhna bhi shuru ho gaya hai. Pakistan aur Jammu Kashmir mein jo bhukamp aaya wo usi ka parbhav tha. Ishwar ke srishti me kabhi anyay nahin hota. After this GuruDev said some more things, and then GuruDev said, America ne bhukamp pidhiton ke liye 1 lakh dollar diye, kitne hote hain 1 dollar 48 rupye ka, 48 lakh hi diye, 50 lakh to humne Rajasthan ke Rajyapal ko diye the. 48 lakh mein to ek gaon bhi nahi bas sakta. Pakistan ko paise dekar America apna fayda utha raha hai. Wo doosra kaun hain, Blair and some completed from behind...Tony Blair. BapuJi further said--- Vishwa ke do bade desh kul mila k 4.25 crore rupye hi de rahe hain. Aapki Delhi mein hi ek farmhouse karib 6-7 crore ka ya usse jyada ka aata hai. Vishwa ke do bade desh ek farmhouse bhi arpan nahin kar paye.
Then GuruDev said to South Delhi samiti- Rajokari ashram Surat se to bada hai, kisi ashram mein apni itni jamin nahin hain. Yahan to dhyanyog shivir ho sakta hai, Ab to yahan ke aadhyaatmik vibration bhi kafi achhe ho gaye hain. Suratwaale, Amdavad wale saal mein 2-3 shivir le lete hain. Aap log vyavastha kar lo aapko bhi shivir mil sakta hain.
RAJOKRI NIGHT DARSHAN
Diwali Amdavad mein hoti hain, abhi se log booking kara lete hain,us time to flight ki bhi booking nahin milti. Aap dekho to aapko diwali mil sakti hai. Diwali ke 5 din baad labh panchmi hoti hai. Tab dekhte hain. At that time I was standing just behind the person with whom GuruDev was talking, Bapu baat to unse kar rahe the aur dekh mujhe rahe the, aisi unki nigah padi ke ab jab wo Delhi se chale gaye to us nigah se hui barsat ka anubhav hota hai, nikamma kar gaye mujhe, na office mein man lagta hain, na ghar mein aur to aur na mala karne mein, bus man karta hai ki kisi na kisi sadhak se baat hoti rahe jo GuruDev ke anubhav sunata rahe. Phir GuruDev went to Baddada aur ek pheri phiri. Ab wahi jane, ke kya karne gaye the wahan. And then with his divine grace Bapu turned the torch off and went back to his kutia. We all kept watching till the time we could see BapuJi entering his kutia. And next morning at 6.30 AM Bapu had his flight, you won’t believe BapuJi took the kismish mala from another bhai to whom I had given as my coming in morning seemed quite difficult. And after that I started counting days till poonam, so that I could go to vadodara.
RAJOKRI NIGHT DARSHAN
Aap sabhi gurubhaion aur behaon mein virajman mere Bapu ko pranaam.
BapuJi jab Ghaziabad aaye the abhi kuch dino pehle, tabhi ke darshan bata raha hoon. BapuJi came to Ghaziabad through train and his train was at 9 PM. As people had come to know about that, a lot of people thronged the station and then something happened for which we all apologise to GuruDev, though I was not there but people surrounded GuruDev and the sevadars could not understand how to take GuruDev to his car and then BapuJi instead of using the footoverbridge, jumped over the tracks and reached other platform, over there someone held BapuJi's hand to support him climb the platform from where he went towards his car. Sometimes we do a lot of wrong things for which our GuruDev has to bear. BapuJi hame shama kar dena. I reached there next morning, BaapJi announced that Bapu was about to come but Bapu didn’t come in morning satra. It was around 12 noon. I had a sankalp that I won’t take water until darshan so I went to the farmhouse where GuruDev was staying. GuruDev hadn't come out since morning. I kept waiting. At around 4 PM BapuJi went to satsang and I had darshans from car.
We reached pandal hoping that GuruDev would say something great today as GuruDev had once said in satsang " Main satsang mein isliye nahin aata ki mujhe satsang karna hain, time diya hai to jana hai, main tab jata hoon jab mere man mein tumhe kuch dene ka vichar aata hain" and that day GuruDev to subah se nahi aaye the to jane kya-kya dene ka vichar tha unka, but I got a seva and I had to go as some of the satsang hoardings on BapuJi's route had got loose and those were not looking good -- and only I and BapuJi knows what was going through my heart when I climbed 25 feet on a metal frame to fix that hoarding. Bas Bapu ne pakad rakha tha nahin to sidha niche tha main to.
When we reached pandal back, satsang was over, I couldn't have darshan so I thought I'll go to the framhouse after having something to eat as I was hungry since morning and as I reached bhandara I got a call, bhaiya jaldi pahuncho, Bapu 10-15 minute darshanon ki liye aane wale. I looked for the person who was with me and he drove as if he was a formula 1 driver. I asked him to slow down as even BapuJi wouldn't have liked us to drive so fast (that's another incident when I experienced GuruDev kripa and I'll tell later) so we reached the farmhouse and when we reached there BapuJi was already out giving darshans, we quietly reached there and sat there. Around 300 people were sitting, bhai in one row and behan in opposite row and BapuJi was walking in between. Apart from moonlight and some jugnus the only light was GuruDev's torch which he used to aim at our faces.
BapuJi was coming towards us and was talking to almost everyone, prasad lutate hue jab aaye to mere samne wali aunty ko bole- Tu bhajan nahin gati she said- gati hoon BapuJi. BapuJi said- phir ga and phir they started singing a beautiful bhajan which I still sometimes sing.
GuruJi ehsaan tumhare,
jitne aakash mein taare.
mein badla kaise chukaon........
They sang a few more bhajans and all this while GuruDev sometimes used to talk to someone and sometimes used to laugh and sometimes used to sing himself. On one bhajan where those aunty was singing about beauty of my GuruDev.
mere guran ki chal nirali...
Bapu ... ab kya bataon.... BapuJi started walking abnormally and started singing ----chal nirali..... ho chal nirali.......... and everyone was just looking at his lila. Then at someother part of the bhajan said-- haan..........., mein 65 saal ka jawan aur tum 40 sal ke budhe aur budiyaaa. After a while GuruJi said --In logon (refering to those aunties who sang bhajan) k man mein bhav tha ki kisi din Bapu ke samne gaye, lo aaj wo bhi poora ho gaya.
Itna kam tha kya, aage to ek gopi aur bethi thi mere Krishna ki, Bapu reached to a girl and talked to her, and aunty sitting next to her said- Bapu yeh do din pehle hi humse lad rahi thi ki Bapu mujhse naaraj hain, mujhse baat nahin karte Bapu said-- Humhe pata hai, meri photo ke samne dum mar rahi thi, kaise Bapu ho, mujhse baat bhi nahi karte, yeh mujhse lad rahi thi, mujhe dum marti hai---saying this Bapu patted on the cheek on that behan and then on her head. Us behan ke to aansu kahan control hone the, hum sabhi ki aankhon se aansun behne lage- kaise wo sadguru samay samay par apna vastavik swarup hamare samne praktate rahte hain (wo har jagah hai, sabki sunte hain, sab dekhte hain par hum unhe sharir manne ki galti karte hain) lekin karein bhi kyon ka -- ab ma Mehengiba na aise sundar lal ko jo janam diya hain, Bhagwan tak mohit hai unpar to hamara kyan kusur. I would like to share one sms which I received a few days back, that was said by Sant Morari Bapu in his satsang and someone sent me. It's beautiful.
Humne socha shayad humhi chahte hein aapko, par apko chahne walon ka kafila nikla. Dil ne kaha shikayat kar khuda se, par wo khuda hi aapko chahne wala nikla. And that night again a lot happened, kya bayan karon aur kitna bayan karoon. Labayan ka bhi koi bayan hai.
After staying out for around 1.5hr BapuJi went back in to have his dinner. A lot of people left by that time and we were just lazing around I had no conveyance to go back to pandal so just kept waiting there around 30 people were also there with me. After another 45 minutes BapuJi came out for a walk after dinner. Some ashram sadhaks had also come for darshan. This time BapuJi again talked to other few people and went back and then one of my acquaintances took me to his home and said, subah mein aayenge darshan karne. ( for those people who feel that we don’t have any conveyance, hum darshan karne kaise jayen, remember bulate wo hain to intejam bhi wohi karte hain, if you remember in my previous mail... mere jiwan ka vilakshan anubhav......... BapuJi wanted to call me so he sent a baleno for me) paida unhone kiya hai to palenge bhi wahi, apna kya jaata hai, sehanshah ke shisya hain to darna kis baat ka.
Rest darshans of Ghaziabad in my next mail. Just pray for me that tomorrow or day after I send you some latest darshans. I need all your sankalps. Got the hint........ this is all I can disclose right now.
Om Shri Sadguru Parmatmane Namah
Sabse pehle aap sab se shamaprarthi hoon ki apni seva niyamit roop se nahin kar paya, diwali hone ke karan samay nahin mil paya iske liye, GuruDev se aur aap sab gurubhai, behanon se kshamaa mangta hoon. As before diwali I was telling you all, darshans of Ghaziabad, so here are lilas of GuruDev on second day in Ghaziabad. Next morning GuruDev came out of the farmhouse with Suresh BaapJi driving the car, when Suresh BaapJi drives the car, it's a lot easier to get darshans because BaapJi drives very slow and with care when BapuJi is sitting in car. We were instructed not to move. The car didn’t stop and we kept sitting there only, someone said-aaj shanivar hain, Bapu malish karwane gaye hain, tabhi BaapJi sath gaye hain, but BapuJi had already got the malish done that morning, BapuJi had gone for a walk some place away from farmhouse. After half an hour BapuJi returned and at that time Bapu stopped the car and came out of the car, all of us kept sitting silently. Someone offered badam prasad to BapuJi, BapuJi started distributing prasad, BapuJi said—Yeh badam dikhne ke mote hain, ander to choti-choti giri hi niklegi, BapuJi gave me 2 badams and to my surprise mere dono badamom mein 3-3 giri nikli.
After distributing half the packet BapuJi said- Ab bas, baki hum andar majdooron ko baatenge. (kitna khayal rakhte hain wo sabka) Then moved the car in, the car stopped again, there were some poor women and children, BapuJi stopped the car and started distributing prasad to all of them and then the car went in the farmhouse. After that when it was about time for BapuJi to go to satsang, we stood in the way on a turn, when the car arrived on the turn, BapuJi threw out a toffee for me and another bhai standing next to me. After that BapuJi gave morning satra and during noon went to Ghaziabad Nandgram ashram, In Ghaziabad there is a school run by ashram, students of the school had prepared some programmes for BapuJi. When BapuJi's car arrived children played band welcoming GuruDev. After around 1 hr BapuJi came into pandal, aate hi prasad bantna shuru, bahut prasad lutaya,toffees, kaju, kismish aur apples, bahut banta aur itni mauj me the ki toffee ka packet khali hote hi, blowed into it and burst it like a small kid. All sadhaks were just going mad, sabko diwana bana ke BapuJi vyaspeeth par ja viraje. In order to get close darshans of GuruDev all people sat so close that there was no place to stand or even ease oneself and believe me more than half of the pandal was empty behind as everyone tried to come forward. Bapu bhi mast the, beththe hi satsang shuru kar diya, then pointed towards a man and said to another person--Yeh itne bimmaar the, itne rog the lekin gojharan se inke sabhi rog door ho gaye and then told some more details about him. Then GuruDev started Om Om Prabhu Ji Om kirtan and after that GuruDev apni masti mein started speaking in bihari accent--- ""Hum jab Bihar gaye to hamein Laluji ne humse kaha, BapuJi.. dekhiye na... apne hi bihar mein hum jail me bethe hain....
Us samay wo jail me the aur hamare paas message aaya ki ek baar BapuJi hamein jail mein aake darshan de de to hum apna sara criminal chhod denge, humne socha kisi ka bhala ho to hum bhi mil lete hain, Hum gaye to Bole BapuJi.. dekhiye na... apne hi bihar mein hum jail me baithe hain...., to humne kaha--phir kya hua, aisa aur kahan ho raha hai ki 3 padi Rabdi sarkar chala rahi hai aur Rabda jail mein baithe baithe remote control se use chala raha hai, is par Laluji khoob hase aur bole, BapuJi hum jab bahar aayenge to aapke charam chooyenge, to humne kaha- bhiaya, charan to hum chhuyate hi nahin hain.......aur ab dekho Bihari bhai poore desh ke rail sambhal rahe hai."""" Uske baad BapuJi ne swasthya ke liye mantra bataya aur uska jap karwaya-- ""NASE ROG HARE SAB PIRA""“
""JAPAT NIRANTAR HANUMAT BIRA""“
ALSO GAVE MANTRA FOR FALSE COURT CASES AGAINST ANYONE """PAWAN TANAY BAL PAWAN SAMANA""“
"""BUDDHI VIVEK VIGYAN NIDHANA""“
"""KAUN SO KAAJ KATHIN JAG MAHI"“
"""JO NAHIN HOT TAT TUM PAHIN""“
Another mantra for behans who are facing difficulty for marriage "" jai jai giriwar raj kishori"“
""jai mahesh mukh chandra chakori""“
Firstly I had a confusion whether I should write these mantras given by GuruDev here but later on my confusion got washed away as I thought that these mantras were given duirng jahir satsang and for all, that's why. After that BapuJi said-- Kaun chahta hai hum baithe rahein? All people raised there hand. BapuJi said-- Hum nahin baithte, aap log swarthi ho khudh darshan chahte ho aur jo log wahan pandal mein baithe hain... then said-- Achha kaun chahta hai ki humein to darshan ho gaye ab doosro ko bhi labh mile, Bapu ko jana chahiye? Now some people again raised their hands to which BapuJi said - Humein baithana nahin chahate isliye jane ko keh rahe hain, chalo bhai, hamri gaadi nikalo, yeh log hamein nahin bithana chahte, chinta na karo, hum tumhein badnaam nahin karenge ke Ghaziabad walo ne humein nahin bithaya. Aur phir khilkhila ke hasne lage. Aisi to unki mauj thi aur aisi krupa. As we had already had many such previous experiences were just sitting and enjoying the lilas with a thought--- Sai tumhari mauj.. betho to betho, jaao to jaao, sab tumhara hain........After some more time BapuJi left for satsang. Evening darshans in the next darshan mail.
OM SADGURU PARMATMANE NAMAH
Ghaziabad second day evening darshans. In the evening satra BapuJi got some couples married and that was such a divya scene, BapuJi and dulha dulhan and thier relatives all on stage, BapuJi in front and all following him. BapuJi ne stage par hi phere kiye aur sab piche piche chal rahe the, Yeh pehli baar, aisi leela ki thi GuruDev ne, I would suggest if you could find vcd of that day, 8 October 2005, do get it. After the evening satra BapuJi went to the ekant farmhouse and after sometime cameout for the darshans. Again it was like the previous night, aisi mauj me the mere GuruJi ki poocho mat, phir kinhi aunty ne bhajan gana shuru kiya aur mere kanha ka hasna aur nachna shuru, BapuJi bhi mauj me kabhi to haste, kabhi gaate aur thoda-thoda nachte. Prasad lutane mein to had kar di. That day some thoughts had come into my mind for which I was feeling sorry and didn’t dare look at GuruDev. I was just apologising and praying to GuruDev ki GuruDev, mujhse bhool ho gayi hain, main kshamaa chaahata hoon, main bhi yahin hoon, Aap bhi yahin ho, jo Aapki marzi but even then I couldn't stop my selfish interest so I further prayed, GuruDev agar aapne mujhe kshamaa kar diya hain to bus ek baar drishti daal dena and so on. Andha kya chahe do aankhe aur jab dene wala dene par aaye to lene wala bhi thak jata hain, meri to murad poori ho gayi, BapuJi came distributing prasad, I was just sitting folding hands looking at BapuJi.
I couldn't dare spreading my hands for parsad, GuruDev stood in front of me and threw a pack of chanas towards me but someone else behind caught it. BapuJi took out another packet and pointed towards me, I spread out my hands and Bapu kept prasad in my hands and moved forward.Ek hi raat mein 5 baar prasad mila GuruDev ka, 2 baar swayam BapuJi ke haathon. Baki 3 baar to GuruDev ne kaha tha ki sabko bant do to mila, doosri bar kishmish mili. BapuJi came again distributing prasad and this time mera lalach to bad hi gaya tha, ab mere sai khila rahe hain to main kyon bhookha rahoon. I again spread my hands hoping to get prasad, BapuJi came to me and started giving me kishmish one by one, I thought, Bapu, kya aap bhi? Gin gin kar dete ho and just then BapuJi emptied his hand full of kishmish in my hands. After a while BapuJi sat in his car and moved, all people were surrounding the car, BapuJi stopped the car looking at one behan and pointed to that behan to come and that behna couldn't control her excitement and was overjoyed---" hato, piche hato mujhe Bapu ne bulaya hain" when she came next to BapuJi's window BapuJi asked her what she was doing and when she told that she was doing come course in Biotech or Life Sciences in Bangalore BapuJi said --- ......... Apne ko jaanne ke vidya jaanle, phir kuch janana baki nahi rehta, yeh kya padti hain tu, tu anushthan kar, lag jaye to ek saal me aatamsakshatkar..... phir kuch baten kehne k baad gadi aage badi lekin us behan ka pyaar koi kam tha, Bapu ko gadi phir rokni padi when she said to Bapu--- "Bapu, aur sunao na kuch."
All of us including BapuJi started laughing listening to this. Aisaa bholapan, aisaa pyaar to kya mere BabaJi nahin rukte, gadi roki aur phir thodi der tak karte rahe baatein, Gadi phir aage badi to Bapu ek behan se, jise GuruDev ne ek din pehle hi panchkarme center shuru karne ki agya di thi unhe apna hath dekar acupressure ke points poochne lage, (exam chal raha tha us behan ka) wo behan Bapu ka haath pakde hath ke acupressure points daba rahi thi aur Bapu points poochthe ja rahe the, hamein to itni madhur irshya ho rahi thi ki poocho mat, ek baar to thoda jor se dabne par Bapu ne hath hata liya aur bole- hat dard karti hai-- lekin phir hath de diya aur thodi der baad andar chale gaye.
Next day was last day of satsang in Ghaziabad, in the morning I had to go for seva to New Delhi railway station so I missed morning darshan and satra. In the afternoon I reached at Nandgram ashram, BapuJi was in his kutia at that time so I had reached on time. After around an hour BapuJi pandal me aaye, is baar phir prasad bantana chalu.
Ek sevadar ko nirdesh diya ki prasad bante lekin itna lutane wale aulia khudh kahan baithne wale the, sevadar ko kaha- Tujhe bantna nahin aata, idhar laa aur uske baad khudh hi Prasad bantne lage. After a while BapuJi went for satsang. In the evening BapuJi went to Karolbagh ashram in Delhi. After finishing satsang, when we reached there BapuJi had gone for a walk in Ravindra Rangshala, the ridge area in front of ashram and after sometime came back and went into ashram . We were not allowed in ashram. Let me describe you about Karolbagh ashram, those who haven't been there. Entry to ashram is through a pathway covered with fence as on both sides it's the ridge. All the people stood on side of the fence and BapuJi came to give darshans, I don’t know what happened there because I didn’t go for darshans as I had a fight with Bapu. After staying for 2 hours at Karolbagh BapuJi went to Rajokari ashram. As Rajokari was on way back home so I decided to try my luck again but GuruDev had gone in his kutia and we returned home at around 12.30 AM. The next day we reached ashram in the morning but BapuJi came out in the evening only. Those darshans, I have already posted in prev post. Hari Om
Om Shri Sadguru Parmatmane Namah
The darshans I'm posting in today are the one which I never expected and never had wanted such darshans. It was during last Diwali when Shankaracharya Shri Jayendra SaraswatiJi was arrested and BapuJi decided to sit on a dharna, we came to know that BapuJi had come to Delhi and we reached BapuJi's ekantwas and there we came to know that GuruDev had come for ShankaracharyaJi. at around 10 AM BapuJi sent a message for all of us that GuruDev wanted more people to reach there, GuruDev was himslef sitting on fast and all sadhaks also sat on fast. We informed as many no of sadhaks as we could to reach patel chowk where BJP had organised a dharna in protest of ShankaracharyaJi's arrest. At around 10 AM BapuJi went for the dharna, we also reched there and when we reached there BapuJi was sitting on ground along with Advani, Suresh BaapJi was also sitting behind GuruDev. There were only handful of people as sadhaks had not reached there and BJP could not gather any crowd.
PATEL CHOWK DHARNA ANUBHAV
We could feel the pain GuruDev was going through, along with that there was another pain and anger in our hearts as our GuruDev had to sit on road, these politicians take undue advantage of our BapuJi's karuna. Bapu to bhole hain, maan bhi jate hain. Warna GuruDev ka ek sankalp kafi tha ShankaracharyaJi ko chudwane ke liye. BapuJi sat there till evening with media doing live telecast on all news channels. More crowd gathered there seeing BapuJi on TV. Bapu kept sitting there till evening without saying a single word. In the evening all politicians started their damn speeches and after them GuruDev stood up and started speaking- Bapu ne itne jor ki Garjana ki sab seham gaye, GuruDev ne agah kiya ki Santon par atyachar hoga to desh par vipatti aayegi, phir un dayalu ke hriday ke vytha unki aankhon se aanshu ban kar bahne lagi. GuruDev ne jo wahan kaha wo bayan karne ki shamta nahin hai, GuruDev ne apna sankalp vyapak aakash mein chhoda aur sabhi sadhakon ne Aum-Aum ki Garjana ki, wo vilakshan drishya tha.