As I checked out, everyone on this group is doing his bit of seva, so by the grace of Pujya GuruDev one thought crossed my mind that I should post some anubhavs of GuruDevJi's holy darshan which I have witnessed and believe me, each of these darshans are like GuruDev in poorna mauj and my tongue can't describe it but I know you all can understand it, as rightly said, it's like Goonge kaa Gud (a dumb man's jaggery) like a dumb can't explain what is sweetness of jaggery, only you have to taste it to feel it, the same way I'm doing my bit but Pujya GuruDev ki us masti ko shabdon me bayan karna sambhav hi nahin hain. Om Gam Gam Ganpataye Namah
We all went to Jaipur when GuruDev was in ekant in Jaipur ashram in the month of Aug’05 for getting satsang for Gurgaon. We all waited till evening and at 5.35PM in the evening GuruDev came, but not towards us, HE went directly towards the cow that was tied in one corner of ashram. BapuJi fed the cow with grass aur apne hathon se gau kee peeth ko sehlane lage. Itne mein ashramwasi ek aur gau aur uske bachde ko bhi le aaye, GuruDev ne apni karuna kripa un teenon gau par barsai, hadd to tab hui jab GuruDev apni chadar se gau ko ragad ragad kar saaf kar rahe the. Us samay to aisa prateet ho raha tha jaise sakshat Bhagwan Krishan gau k sath khel rahein ho. Mere GuruDev aisi leela karte hain ki unka andaj ....... lajawab hain, I'm not finding words to explain that, neither am I in a postion to explain that. After that GuruDev went back to his kutia and asked ashram sadhaks to get the cows in. Everyone was turned out of kutia. Only the cows and GuruDev were in the kutia and Govind bhai (BapuJi's security person) was sitting at the gate. One thing I forgot to mention that while returning to kutia the calf started running behind Bapu like the calfs used to do with Lord Krishna and at that moment GuruDev’s paduka got stuck in wet mud, HE left HIS paduka over there and started walking bare foot, Dinesh bhai came running with GuruDev's other pair of slippers.
After spending around half hour with cows GuruDev came out in the pandal, sat on the chair and in his mauj talked to us. I'll tell about that in another mail. One more thing, the night before, GuruDev did chowki of ashram as everyone was asleep in ashram, GuruDev remained awake till wee hours of the morning and did chowki of ashram, I'll tell about that later, how GuruDev Himself told all this to us. Hey Pyare GuruDev agar kuch trutiyan reh gayi ho to shama karnaa.
I had to edit some portions of this as those were my feelings and I couldn’t dare write all that as that's some secret between me and GuruDev. Manish Kalra
Param Pujya GuruDev k charnon mein koti koti vandan.
Jaipur darshan contd:
When GuruDev came to pandal, the ladies started making noise. GuruDev had come after doing evening sandhya, so he was in his OwnSelf and seeing all the ladies making noise, went back. After 10 minutes BapuJi came back (baahar se kathor dikhte hue bhi Guru kaa hriday ander se phool k tarah komal hota hee hain), sat on a chair. On the table in front of HIM was a rose garland, some flowers, a small silver box with chandan in it (some sadhak had kept that for GuruDev) GuruDev said, Main samiti se milne ke liye aaya hoon, badi door se aaye hain ye log. Kaun kaun si samiti hain. Samitis of a few cities stood up. GuruDev said “Ek ek karke batao, kaun kya karta hain” while pointing towards Gurgaon samiti.
Our pradhan started speaking with GuruDev 's aagya and the rest of members also told about themselves. I was hesitating a bit as I was not able to gain courage to open my mouth in front of Poorna Brahma. I was spell bound. GuruDev looked at me and said "Ab bache hue log bhi apne baare mein jaldi bata do, and the Gurukripa, I was the only one left, GuruDev was looking at me only. I told about myself, GuruDev talked to me for 1 more minute about something and then started asking about other samitis, we became selfish and as GuruDev once had said that Gurgaon will get poonam satsang so we requested GuruDev for four day satsang and give rakshabandhan poonam in Gurgaon. GuruDev said nothing and started talking to other samitis.
A person from Dadri samiti stood up and prayed to GuruDev for GuruDev’s satsang in Dadri, GuruDev said laughingly, satsang thoda muskil hain hum ho ke nikal jayenge. At which the saem person who used to work in UAE and stayed in Dadri, prayed again. BapuJi listened to other samitis also. And then GuruDev started kirtan and took all of us in dhyan on bansi, on the Omkar kirtan. After around 15-20 minutes, everyone was in a deep silence and GuruDev breaking the silence started talking to ladies and enquired how much did they spent coming to ashram, some said Rs.100, some said Rs.150. at which GuruDev said not to spend that much and asked them not to come the next day. GuruDev at one point also said that ladies should come to ashram on Thursdays and Sundays, as it's not possible for them to come everyday. GuruDev further said even when he is in ekant, they should come only on Thursdays and Sundays and then said launghingly that koee na koee Guruvaar ya Ravivar to pad hi jayega, aur aapko darhsan bhi ho jayenge.
During all this mobile of a person from Gurgaon rang and GuruDev said “Mobile jabt kar lo, 6 mahine baad de dena par savdhan, koi mobile ka istemal na karen, agar kisi ne is dauran ek call bhi ki to 100 rupye ka jurmana and later after 10 minutes said ek call ka 10 rupye aur usse jyada ka 100 rupya. Fir bole ki sim ise de do aur handset rakho. Satsang mein vighn ki saja hain. I was just looking at GuruDev’s lilaas and smiling in my heart, seeing all this, what happened after is more intersting and shows how GuruDev plans for his sadhakas.
Guudev then started giving dates to samitis and gave half day satsang to Dadri, at which one person from Dadri spoke up, GuruDev Sunday ko satsang de dijiye, bahut public aa payegi at which GuruDev showed a bit of narajgi and said Sunday ko satsang chahiye, to yeh satsang cancel aur 10 saal baad aana. At which all of us started praying to GuruDev not to say this but only HE knows what he has in his mind. GuruDev didn’t cancel the satsang but HE wanted to tell us a important thing, I apologise i don’t remember exact wording but GuruDev meant, Guru ke samne maryada ka ullanghan nahin karna chahiye aur Guru jo kripa kar k de dein usme hi santosh karna chahiye. The person who said all this was scared but GuruDev to kripa ke sindhu hain. Unhone us vyakti se poocha, kya karta hain, he had some business of grains in Anaj mandi somewhere, at which GuruDev said, that's why you talked like this. And then GuruDev started asking him rates of various grains like jau, bajra etc… for cows in gaushala. After that GuruDev asked people from Jaipur " Abhi hum ekant mein hain, phir bhi itni bhid ho gayi hain, kisi ne kisi ko nahin bataya ki Bapu yahan hai" BapuJi further said jokingly “Kal itwar hai, kal itwar ka satsang hoga, kisi ko mat batana phir bhi sabko pata lag jata hain, sab doosro ko kehte hain - Bapu ekant mein hain, kisi ko mat batana, aur aise hi sabko pata lag jata hai lekin koi kisi ko nahin batata.
(I don’t exactly remember at which point GuruDev said this in start or in the end so I apologise) GuruDev said to Gurgaon samiti pradhan - Abhi barish hain, Janmasthmi ke baad satsang de to, at which Gurgaon pradhan said - GuruDev apke satsang mein to Indra dev to aate hi hain, sabko pata hain, vyavastha ho jayegi. Gurudev karne wale to aap hain, hum to nimit matra hain. And GuruDev started laughing and later said - Bhagwan Krishna ne bhi Arjun ko nimit banaya tha aur Arjun ne kaurvan ko mara tha, ab dekhte hain aap kisko marte hain. And then said "Dekhenge, aapko bata denge, and GuruDev further said - “ Jis chiz ke beech aa jaye raat wo poori nahin hoti baat"
GuruDev said – aap abhi nikloge, pahunchne se pehle aapko pata lag jayega. GuruDev was in pandal till about 9 PM and at around 12 midnight, when were on the way back to Gurgaon we got a call from Dinesh bhai that GuruDev had given us 4 day satsang and poonam, for 4 day programme.
And you won’t believe when GuruDev came to Gurgaon, HE gave mantra for rains and it rained so heavily that we had to get firetenders and JCB's in service to drain out all the water that filled the satsang pandal and ground and all the Gurgaon people accepted that rains had come only after GuruDev came and that was printed in local newspapers the very next day also.
Around the end when GuruDev was about to go , the person from Gurgaon whose mobile was taken away prayed to GuruDev that his business was dependent on his mobile at which GuruDev said thik hain lekin vighna ke paap se aise to nahin chootoge and after thinking a bit said, Teen Din yahan par Gau charayo aur gau ki seva karo at which the person said, GuruDev mein Gurgaon se hoon aur aapka wahan bhi program hai to wahan bhi meri seva hai, aap agya karein, mein kya karoon, he said clearing everything before GuruDev. Hearing this GuruDev said - Gurgaon se ho and started laughing for 2-3 minutes and asked him to setup a pyau for 3 days during satsang. (GuruDev kaise kaise tarikon se karam bandhan se chudwa dete hain, pyao ki seva karwake GuruDev ne jane un bhai ki kin karmon ko kat diya) Gurukripa jo hoye to, shooli kanta ho jaye. GuruDev kee bate karne mein ya unki bare mein likne mein samarth na hote hue bhi vani rukti nahin aur type karte hue hath thakte nahin par it's been a long message so I'll stop. The third part of Jaipur darshan and other darshans in next mail.
GuruDev aapki vani yaa lilaon ka bayan karne mein agar mujhse koi truti hui ho to aapka putra aapse kshama prarthi hain. Kabira mange mangna, prabhu dijo mohe doy
Sant samagam , harikrupa, mo ghar nish din hoye.
This was not witnessed by me but it was told by GuruDev in morning darshan when we were not present there, from what I heard from one of the gurubehan.
In the morning darshan, GuruDev said - “Hum raat mein uthe to kutia ki light jalai, Govind utha aur poocha kaun- humne kahan Main hoon Govind, tu so ja aur Govind phir so gaya. Humne light band ki aur torch lekar bahar aaye. Ashram kaa chakkar lagaya to dekha ki koi chowki pe nahin tha. Humne hi choki shuru kar di. Hum pandal mein gaye to pankha chal raha tha. Humne socha dekhe kaun so raha hai, wahan pahunce to pankha aise hi chal raha tha. Humne pankha band kiya.(Kitni kar kasar se rehtan hain GuruDev aur jaisa ki GuruDev ke shishya Swami NarsinghanandJi last Sunday Rajokari ashram mein keh rahe the ki GuruDev apne sevkon ki bhi seva karte hain (that's another Calcutta incident told by him which I'll write later) phir 3- 3.30 baje tak GuruDev chowki karte rahe. All the people sitting there were felling sorry as GuruDev had to leave his dhyan, samadhi for doing chowki of ashram just because we had been a little careless about our sevas.)
As Jaipur ashram is new , construction work was going on, GuruDev pointed towards his kutia's gate that was rusted and not painted. GuruDev said, dekho Sant ka dwar aisa hota hai kya? (what I understood from all this incident was that we should always be tatpar in our sevas and seva mein keval bhavukta hi nahin buddhi ka bhi prayog karna chahiye.
A few more things that I remember when GuruDev was sitting in pandla in front of us.
GuruDev said- Yahan ka paani bahut meetha hain, log kehte hain, Rajasthan mein paani ki kami hai. Aas pas to kahin bhi itna meetha pani nahin hain, yahan ashram mein thoda hi khodne par paani nikalaa aur bahut meetha paani nikla. Hum waise to gangajal hi peete
hain par humne to apne sevak ko bol diya ki thode Gangajal mein yahan ka paani bhi mila de.
Calcutta incident as told by Swami NarsinghanandJi GuruDev had His satsang in Calcutta, where HE was staying was a 2 storied building, GuruDev's room was on second floor and BapuJi's rasoi was on first floor. Rohit bhai was doing GuruDev's rasoi seva that day. In the evening GuruDev sat in dhyan in his room and Rohit bhai prepared rasoi for GuruDev and was sitting there waiting for GuruDev to come downstairs. GuruDev to dhyan mein aise kho gaye ki bahut der baad hi neeche aaye. Niche aaye to GuruDev ne dikha ki Rohit bhai Bapu ka intejaar karte karte hi wahin rasoi me jamin par so gaye aur unhe machhar (mosquitoes) kat rahe the. GuruDev ne pehle to apni chadar se Rohit bhai ke uppar bethe macchar hatae aur phir apni chadar unpar dal di ki unhe machhar na kate. Phir GuruDev ne apne driver se kaha ki "Meri machhardani (mosquito net) is par laga do, par is tarah lagana ki iski neend na toote aur ise machhar bhi na kate.
Kaise hain hamare GuruDev, aise Poorna Brahma, Sakshat Parmatma ko koi abhiman nahin apne bade hone ka, apne shishyon ki , apne bhakton ki seva karne mein bhi wo sankoch nahin karte, sahi hai Bhagwan Krishna ne kaha hai ananyash chintyanto maam, ya jana paryupastae tesham nityabhiyuktam yogshem wahamyam. jo ananya bhav se mera chintan karta hai usa yogshem mein khud wahan karta hoon.
Dhanya hain GuruDev jo muje aisi seva di ki main un swarnim kshano ko likte hue phir se unme kho jata hoon ki GuruDev ki smriti phir phir ho aati hai.
bus tera sahara kafi hai mere sai.
Hari Om GuruDev ke pawan pawan charnon mein koti koti pranam. GuruDev ki aisi aseem anukampa hai ki likne se pehle sochna pad raha hai ki kaunsi lila pehle likhon aur kaunsi badmein.
aur agar aapko sach batao to is uljhan ko suljhane mein GuruDev ne hi madad ki aur bataya ki kaunsa anubhav aaj ki seva mein shamil karoon. It was 30 September or 1 October 2002( I have a slight confusion about date but most probably 30 September. GuruDev had His satsang in Gurgaon after Ghaziabad and Chandigarh, it was first day of satsang in Gurgaon. I had jal seva. GuruDev was staying near pandal during noon and at night at an ekant agyat kutia.
Just before GuruDev was to end His evening stasang I was called by one of our samiti persons and they asked me to go to BapuJi's daytime utara (place where GuruDev's daytime stay was arranged). Firstly I said that I can't go because satsang was about to leave and I have to take care of water tankers and ice as I had jal seva and crowd was very large during evening. But they forcibly sent me there, I looked for my scooter but someone had taken my scooter for seva, so I took another guubhai and his scooter to the utara. Our seva was to prevent people from crowding that place but I knew that GuruDev was not going to come there and same happened. Not even Bapu neither public came there. But we still decided to wait for 10-15 more minutes as I didn’t feel it right to leave this seva. After around 5-7 minutes 2 balenos (if I correctly remeber) came there and stopped right in front of us. One aunty came out of the car and said that they had come from Mumbai and GuruDev had asked them to meet him in Gurgaon. I informed them to go to GuruDev's ekantvas as it was evening and GuruDev was going to spend night over there. I told them the way but they said that their drivers were also not local so they wanted us to accompany them, we hesitated but on their request we sat in the front car and the other car followed. Even after all this happened I still hadn't understood, what GuruDev had in his mind for me that night. In the way I requested that lady as GuruDev had called her so she would definitely be meeting Bapu, so we requested her to take us along with her while meeting GuruDev (look at my selfishness- unka sahara chhod kar doosro ka sahara dhond raha tha wo bhi unhi ke darshanon ke liye) when we reached there, around 100-150 people were already sitting outside.
Let me first describe that ekantvas. It was like a farmhouse with GuruDev's kutia and a few maun-mandirs there. It's in an isolated area so no one comes there. So everyone was sitting outside on the small road. One ashramwasi came out and arranged a chair and a small table for GuruDev, after a while GuruDev came out with "badminton player Phulela Gopichand". Gopichand had become a bit popular those days as he had won some title and also came in news when he refused to do an endorsement for cola giant coca cola by saying that as he himself doesn’t drink any such colas, how can he endorse them and he also said that he was not intersted in the heavy endorsement money for publishing a product that's not good for public and this was the thing in him that pleased GuruDev and that's why GuruDev had called him to meet him.
GuruDev gave him Yuvadhan and Mahaan Naari. When he opened up Maahan Naari, BapuJi said- tumhare liye nahin hain ye, tumhari lady ke liye hain.
Aage ki baat to yaad karte hi mera rom rom pulkit ho jata hai. What I witnessed that night was........... amazing, even this is not the right word. Let’s leave it.
GuruDev jab apne safed chadar ode hue bahar aaye to unki nigahon mein ek noor tha, sab mohit ho gaye, bilkul shanti, GuruDev baith gaye aur aage ke kuch pal to mujhe yaad hi nahi, phir jahan se yaad aa raha hai , batata hoon. One person stood up and pointed towards a girl that was his sister and said, GuruDev meri behan ki shadi nahin ho rahi, Bapu bole- “Kya karoge iski shadi karke, iski shadi to mujhse hogi." That girl was sitting in 2/3 row. She asked Bapu - Bapu mein aage aa jaon. GuruDev said - Aa ja. She stood up and started coming towards front looking towards earth and when she looked up she saw, GuruDev stood up from his chair and sat on ground and asked that girl - Haan aa ja , yahan baith ja, pointing towards his chair. That girl stood like a statue and tears rolled down her eyes. GuruDev kept sitting on the road and there was nothing spread over the area where GuruDev was sitting and there were a lot of pebbles also . Bapu pointed that girl to sit and that girl sat next to Bapu. BapuJi further said""""" AAJ TAK KISI MAI KE LAL NE MERI DHADI PAR HATH NAHIN PHERA, TU HATH LAGAYEGI MERI DHADI KO"""""""""""" That behan was still crying and with trembling hands. She kept her hand on GuruDev's beautiful beard (mere Baba ji ki dhadi ka to har koi diwana hai, ek to unki chadar, unki dhadi, unki aankhen aur unki muskan kya kar deti hai pata nahin......... ) Bapu was also patting on her cheek with so much love as sometime people do to infants, koi shabd nahin bus aankhon mein hi har koi wo nazara samet lena chaahata thaa. Sabki aankhon mein is Gurukrupaa ke adbhud najare ko dekh kar aansoon the. Brahmagyani Sant jameen par baithe apne ek ek bhakt ke liye aur kya kya lila kar rahe the.
After sometime that behan said - Bapu mere papa bahut gussa karte hain to which BapuJi took out the chain he was wearing and gave it to that behan's father and said, bhojan chaba-chaba ke karna. Ab gussa nahin karenge, bus......Then there was another lady who had her 7-8 yr old son with her. She said - Bapu mera beta coma mein hain and told some more details. GuruDev said- kaun kehta hai coma mein hai (now just see the miracle) Beta Bol OM.............. Bol OM................... Beta Bol OM........... and that kid said OM. ( I can challenge people who say miracles dont happen, I have seen them.) GuruDev ki aisi mauj ki har koi apne dil ki baat kahe aur wo Aulia apne akhoot khajane se lutae ja rahe. One very small girl said- BapuJi mujhe na doctor banna hain. BapuJi replied-- Tu to allopathic doctor banegi aur allopathic to Hum nahin....(couldn't recall the exact wordings)........, ayurvedic doctor banegi. Girl - BapuJi, aap jo bana do, wahi ban jaoongi. BapuJi said patting on her head- Ja ban gayi doctor. A lot happned that night which I witnessed aur ab meri bhi to bari aani thi, sabko bante hue mere data mujhe diye bina kaise chale jaate.
It happened for around 45 to 60 mintes and then GuruDev went back in his kutia aur GuruDev ka andar jana tha ki mera rona shuru. I cried like a kid and a lot of sadhak bhai and behan tried to calm me. I started a fight with Bapu- sabse baat ki, mujhse bhi kar lete to unka kuch bigad jata . I ran away from there. I went to a sadhak and asked him - BapuJi ki to apse kai bar bat hui hain, meri bhi karwa do. He said- kya baat karni hain I said- kuch nahin. He said - phir.... and after a silence said...... apne papa se baat karne ke liye tu mujhe bulata hain kya? Tere Baap hain, baat kar le. I said- ab to andar chale gaye, bahar ho to baat karoon na. And as if BapuJi was just waiting for me to say this, He opened a small window that was near guard's room and stood there. By the time I could reach there people had gathered around that window and I don’t know how I reached right in front of the window and as that window was a bit high, I took support of that window to look at GuruDev and I kept both my hands on the window. And that was the moment.................
Bapu kept his hand on my right hand, he held my hands for 10 minutes and all this while he kept pressing my thumb. I don’t know where I was and I could feel a lot of energy flowing through me. It was like a soothing electric current. I was just staring at GuruDev and GuruDev was just looking at me. There was no light except for the torch which BapuJi held on his face with his other hand. Others behind me were pinching me - say something, say something but I could only dare speak-----GuruDev.......GuruDev...........GuruDev......and that was it. Now everyone else was talking to him but GuruDev was looking at me and I at GuruDev and then GuruDev closed that window.
Aage ke shanon mein kya hua mujhe yaad nahin bus itna yaad hai ki I kept crying like a kid for more than 2 hrs. and was holding my right hand like a precious property and you know I didn’t use my right hand for the next 2 days. All sevas completed using just my left hand. I had gone mad. We came back on another scooter four people on a single scooter, all of us mast in GuruDev's masti. Hari om... age mein likhne ki stithi mein nahin hoon.
BabaJi ko pranaam
Yeh kaisa hai jaado samajh mein na aaya,tere pyar ne humko jeena sikhaya. Bapu tum kyon mile humein, tum na the to hum kisi kam ke the, tum jo mile hum nikamme ho gaye,mere baba,mere sai,tum yaad na aaya karo. Likhna to kuch chahte hain, likhte kuch jate hain. So, now let me start, Bapu to kuch likhne hi nahin denge. Just recently before Baroda shivir BapuJi had his satsang in Ghaziabad and after finishing Ghaziabad satsang on the same evening Bapu reached Karolbagh ashram in Delhi and after staying there for around 1.5-2 hrs, went to Rajokari ashram. Some things are not to be told, about what we did so it's better I won’t tell them. Next morning I reached Rajokari after lying to my ma that I was going to office and I called up office that I had gone to doctor and I'll be back to office by noon. (during Ghaziabad satsang I took leave for 3 days by saying that I had got a disc slip and doctor advised me bed rest) I thoght that BapuJi will leave Delhi by noon so I could go to office but Bapu the ki dilli se jaane ka naam hi nahin le rahe the. Subah se dopahar hui aur dopahar se sham, na to Bapu gaye aur na hi aaye darshan dene. Bapu ne mujhe fasa diya tha. My ma called me up in evening and I thought it's better I tell the truth and then a volcano burst out. Jo dant padi, upar se subah se kuch khaya bhi nahin tha, sankalp kar rakha tha, ki darshan ke bad hi kuch khaonga. isi tarah mummy ko samjhaya.