September 6, 2013
I wouldn’t be where I am today if it wasn’t for my daughter, Aaliyah. She has made me see what life has to offer and how amazing a child is. She taught me to never take life for granted and always reach for the stars rather than the trees. I thought I knew right from wrong but I didn’t. My mentality was like a child, she helped me grow and taught me to never give up no matter what the challenge is. Till this day, I will never go back to the person I used to be. My daughter is my world and I will never let her go no matter what the circumstances are. You will never know how much love you can have for a person until you have children.
Before I was pregnant with Aaliyah, I really didn’t care whether I lived or died. I took many risks and chances that could’ve either hurt me, killed me, or sent me to jail. I was very young and stupid. I was involved with gangs and didn’t care much for school, even though I was only fourteen. This is the age I got pregnant with Aaliyah, she’s a blessing and I will never hesitate to say she saved my life.
During and after my pregnancy I changed my entire life around. I wasn’t the same, and I didn’t feel the same. I quit associating with people that I knew would put Aaliyah’s life in danger. I always kept her safe and I continue to do so. I don’t know what I would do if something ever happened to her, and especially if I was the cause. This is why I can never see myself going back to my old ways.
Aaliyah is the reason why I am here today; she kept me going even if I was struggling. Late nights I would just lay and cry because I felt like I could be a better mother, but when I turned round I could see my angel sleeping. I look at her and see that she is fed, has clothes, and a roof over her head and that’s when I remind myself I am doing a great job. She has no one else but me, and I am going to be the person she looks up to for the rest of my life. I am her role model and I will never give up on life, because I know this little innocent girl needs me. We need each other. I wouldn’t have chased my dreams, and wouldn’t have turned into the woman I am today without her.